My Day Off!!

This morning i was thinking to myself that later this week Kinsey is going to be 17 months old! Where did the time go? This time 17 months ago i was so anxious to have my new baby girl! I was already past my due date and just couldn't wait any longer! Well patience is definitely a virtue because low and behold just a couple of days later i get induced (got sent home from the hospital after that because it wasn't working) then later that night just as i was about to fall asleep the cramps started... and i thought "is this it???!!! It couldn't be I'll just go to sleep." Every time i tried falling asleep the pains got more frequent and much more strong so about 5 hours later i finally knew it wasn't a trick and it was time to go to the hospital. At about 3am I woke Hal up and we were off to the hospital. On our way there i fell asleep and Hal drove a little bit further so i could get a little sleep in before the madness, well when he exited off of the freeway he turned right at a red light where there was a "NO RIGHT ON RED" sign and of course there was a cop there and of course he pulled us over!! Well he let us go because I was in labor and I was having a contraction while he was asking us questions! So we a arrived at the hospital and I had to get checked in once again.

I tried to go as long as i could with out an epidural or not get one at all. At about 6am i got the epidural and then i slept till about 1pm and the nurses told me it would soon be time to push! Once they said that I felt my heart in my throat! I mean I knew that this is what happens when you're pregnant... a baby comes at the end, but is was so real right then and I had the worst fear that I wouldn't be a good enough mom! What if when she was crying I didn't know how to take care of her? Hal is still in school how are we going to provide for her? How can i go back to work now? So many things flew through my mind and kept me occupied!! It seemed like the nurse never left because there she was coaching me on pushing and I hear her say to Hal, "look at that all of that dark hair!". For some reason when she said that every fear or worry i had just minutes before that had washed away and WE were instantly in LOVE! I knew no matter what WE would take care of her and WE would be good to her and with the help of my mom i can still work!

Today I have a little girl, that just before she took a nap, she had her second bowl of cereal and she wont let anyone help here when it comes to feeding herself, but as she did it she kept saying "I love you mom". That just make every trial we have or have had worth the hard work! I know some people say wait to have kids, enjoy yourselves, but for us we have enjoyed ourselves. There's so much more meaning and purpose to EVERYTHING we do. We laugh so hard everyday because if you know Hal, well that little girl is just a mini version of him. She dances EVERY time she hears music and if you're sitting when she's dancing she says "HELP YOU" and helps you our of your seat then she says "SHAKE IT". She just brings so much to our family and makes everything so much more special! We're so lucky to be her parents!